Well, I think that’s hockey done for our family. Troy was home to take care of it, but it was the usual moaning and drama and carrying on – Jericho hates getting his hair brushed, Emma wanted to stay home and do her homework…at one point Troy looked at me and said, “I know what you mean now.” They all eventually left, but apparently once they got there Emma just sat down and cried and refused to train, so that was a complete and utter waste of time. I am just furiously angry honestly. Emma is great 99% of the time, but that 1% of the time where she sulks and behaves like a two year old just infuriate me.
Well, whatever. I’m not going through this shit every week, so even though it feels like rewarding her appalling behaviour she doesn’t have to play. Jericho trained and had fun I think, but frankly I will be surprised if he continues to play if Emma doesn’t, so that’s probably it.
I am just so sick of my kids’ whining. Today, it feels like that’s all they do, and it’s always about the same damn things. Doing the dishes, putting out the recycling, picking up after themselves, doing homework, whatever we’re having for dinner/snack/breakfast/lunch, and brushing/tying up hair. Every. Single. Day.
Soren also cries about being tired, but I don’t think he can help that. So while I’m not cross with him for doing it, it still happens all the time and just adds to the overall feeling of me crumbling under their endless demands.
Seriously, today I feel like giving up completely. Nothing is ever good enough, no one is ever appreciative, and no matter what I do someone is always moaning and bitching at me, so why bother?
Then of course I hate myself for being like this, because this is what being a parent is and that’s the job I signed up for. Kids are completely self-centred, that’s just what kids are. It’s not like I expect real gratitude or anything, but it would be nice to just occasionally feel like they are able to acknowledge the fact that I am not here solely to be their servant, and that just because they don’t like something doesn’t mean it is all my fault. I really wish they would learn that sometimes, there are things that you just have to live with, and no amount of moaning and whining and carrying on will make any difference so you may as well STOP DOING IT.
I don’t know. Basically tonight it all feels like failure.
Apart from everything I hate tonight…today was rainy, I did more gardening, I drove Nicholai to and from his group, I took Emma to Officeworks to buy a pin board and sticky notes, I bought a new guinea pig house so the stinky things can be moved outside, I bought tickets for Troy and Nicholai to go and see the Greenday musical for Nicholai’s birthday (this is a surprise), I went to the supermarket, I did the laundry. Blah blah blah…I should probably stop writing this now, as I certainly have nothing very nice to say.