It was a hair cutting day today. Emma and I had an appointment at the hairdresser’s after school. Mine is just around my shoulders and she cut the side fringe back into it, and Emma had a good ten inches lopped off the bottom of hers. It’s just below her shoulders now- she looks really cute and I can’t wait to see what it looks like after she’s washed it and it’s settled a bit more.
Troy cut Jericho’s hair with the clippers once we all got home too. This came about because when I cut Troy’s hair with the clippers yesterday I asked all the boys if they’d want theirs done too. Jericho, for some reason I’m not really sure of, said we could clipper his hair if we hosed him off instead of making him have a bath. It was too late to do that yesterday, but that’s exactly what happened today! Troy clippered his hair on the back porch and then we took him down into the yard and hosed him down- he thought it was hilariously good fun. And he’s now got a short and easily maintained hairstyle for summer, so I’m going to encourage him to keep it for a while. His hair is so thick, it must be cooler to have it super short during the hot weather.
I taught today which, as always, had its good and bad moments. It seemed to go quickly though, which was good!
I saw Martine, the psychologist, and spoke to her after she’d spoken to Emma. She doesn’t tell me specifically what Emma says of course, but we talk in general terms about what’s worrying her and Martine tells me how she’s approaching things. She said today that Emma’s a very sensitive child and is easily upset talking about things, but she seems very comfortable sharing with Martine and they’re working on some concrete actions and goals.
I find this so difficult, but I do really like Martine. She definitely seems to understand Emma and her approach is very slow and gentle and based a lot on art and creativity. She said that they don’t just sit there and talk- they made a ‘worry tree’ and have been drawing a lot of things to illustrate feelings, and even when they are just talking they were decorating butterflies with textas. She said today that it’s going to take a while though. Emma’s feeling pretty fragile, and there’s a lot that we need to do to build up her confidence and resilience.
I guess I just kind of hate that so much of it is my fault. I totally understand that there’s nothing I could have done that would change this, and that really we shielded the kids as much as we could and probably better than a lot of people in the same situation would have been able to…but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck.